Things have been changing lately. I love when things change. I just don't like the process. If i could change something, i would rather just push a button, or turn a page, or something that only involves a One Step process. Maybe because i don't like decisions. I think i have a phobia.
Decidophobia
and yes. that is the technical name.
Not even joking.
Lately I've been doing everything in my power (which isn't a whole lot) to not make decisions. I think people that HAVE Decidophobia have i because it feels like every decision they've made always backfires on them. That's kind of whats going on right now. At least with making plans. My plans never turn out--NEVER--the way they're supposed to. *SIGH*
It's hard asking God o decide for me. It's weird though. I'm scared of making decisions, yet i won't let someone...*ahem*excuse me...the CREATOR of the UNIVERSE...make them for me. Sounds pretty smart doesn't it?
I just have too much in my life. TOOO much. I have Mexico training sessions, i have school dances, i have mission trips, i have homework, i have work, i have this and that and this and that. When does it stop? when do i have to say "STOP".
"oh, but...it'll be over in a week..."
Yeah Jordan... it'll be over in a week. Just in time for you to commit to something else for another 3 weeks.
I frustrate myself. ARGH.
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uh huh... but you always seem to get through it all. okay...maybe not all in once piece, but you do get through it. I think I've learned that even if you over-commit yourself, you can still finish well. like, attitude-wise. not always.
but sometimes.
I love you.
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